up to now,the battle is far from my victory..i am still bound in the chains of pain..and untrue and deceiving love..i want to break free, but somehow i feel that the chains are made of silk and smooth to my wrist...i want to break free, but somehow, i long to feel the chains made of silk, for it is never tight..i want to break free, but somehow i cannot, for i am weak...i am weak and enslaved because it was through this enslavement that i felt loved...yet, it is untrue...it is not love...
may the God who created all of heaven and earth free me and take me as His servant, that i may be able to feel the real love and not want and long for the untrue love i used to believe to be real...so that i may help those who are also bound to the chains made of silk...and make them see where we can find the true meaning of love...
i've gone through terrible things that might have turned the usual people against God, but somehow i feel that He chose me to bear all of those pain because He knows i will not turn away from Him, and in fact, i would go to Him wanting nothing but the truth in this world which can be attained through the wisdom He alone can give...
i want to serve Him but i am still bound by the chains made of silk...may He at last free me...and make me His servant forever...Glory be to the LORD!!!!!=)
-deep thinker..
