from the mind of a spirit

"attitude is a matter of choice.."

2008-11-26T00:31:00.000-08:00

..that is what mommy edna said...and in fact, she is right... no matter what the circumstances are..or the people involved..or even the situation is... we are always the one responsible for what we've said or the action we have taken... and that changed my perception of taking blame...i am a very talkative person and oftentimes, what i say hurts another human being... but i regret it after thinking... and so now i realize that it is me who is wrong no matter what or who had been the primary reason... and i've learned to accept that fact.

and i know it is not automatic that all the other people in this world would do the same...they would keep on saying what they feel no matter what and blame others of the consequences of what they've said...sad, right?! but that is reality...everything is fair....yap,you read that right...life is fair...for all of us experience unfair situations...with no exception whether you are rich or poor..intelligent or dumb...professional or amateur... with a group of friends or an emo...a true friend or not..a loyal friend or a backstabber...no matter what...you will feel bad...

so,i guess, mommy edna is really right...i should always think first of what i'll say or do because it is my responsibility whatever be the consequences of those simple words... i am not them, they are not me...i should never expect them to be as reasonable or wide-minded as me... i should accept the fact that people are different from each other, we mature at different times and for different reasons... my words are my attitude...not the people around me,neither how they act or speak...again, they are not me and i am not them...so please understand if i state this...i don't believe in the saying..."tell me who your friends are and i'll tell you who you are..."(well maybe if they are real...and not imaginary...hahaha)...what i believe in is you are who you are...it is your choice,nobody else's... don't blame others of your ugly characteristics...blame your choices...blame yourself...and when you're done blaming your imperfect self, start changing for you to mature...you need to change the way you think and behave,not the way your frinds do for you to mature....and once again, they are not me and i am not them!!!!.... Godbless!!!=)

-angelica...

P.S.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MICHAELANGELO ANGELES!!!!!!!!....i hope you find what i wrote worth reading and put it into your life...you will forever be a treasured friend...take care!! Godbless!!!

a week 2 keep in memory..

2008-11-22T19:03:00.000-08:00

doomsday...chaos...destruction...end of the world?....ldunno...but i hope before that frightening day comes, i'll be able to do my purpose...i am a new born Christian and i'm still in the starting process...hell,we have comp class every sunday,and worse,my sked is 8-11am!!!!ans our church service is 10-12....who wont be depressed with that kind of hindrance?!?!...may God do something about that....haaaai....

i had a not so good weekend..i was highly irritated the week before...and that really spoiled my weekend....hmpf!!!

there is a special event this week and i hate it...he had done too much in my life and he became a vital part of it,,..i can say what i felt was true...but he didnt give a damn about it so it became meaningless...let me name him "1st"..for he made me experience a lot of new things and emotions i didnt know i had..i dont know if i'll be able to totally forget him but i know i can continue living without his physical presence...but he will remain a part of my mind and heart...i love him,yes, even though he doesnt love me..and i can continue loving him until my heart gets tired of beating for him...i'll not force myself to forget him...it'll only make me remember him more...i'll let his thoughts come to my mind..i'll not stop it...i'll let it flow down in the river of my thoughts until it runs dry and i'll no longer remember him...he is my love but not my life...so i'll continually exist without him...only exist..i can only exist... (HAPPY BIRTHDAY...I LOVE YOU...)

-angelica

a day with pearl

2008-11-09T02:24:00.000-08:00

well..this day i spent with one of my close friends,ms. aurora pearl cruz evangelista....i joined her and her cousin cristy in their workplace in recar...we upladed some photos then print some..but we ate first...nilibre ko xa ng lunch..(once in a lietime mangyari un...bwahahaha)...

we took some more pictures and we plan to take more as we walk to the terminal...ahihihi...haai...i enjoyed staying here...its not hot and free internet...hehehe...

"ahm...nata2e n q..."is all she can say...hahahahah...

well,that's all...gotta go!!luv you all!!=)

the chains made of silk

2008-10-23T02:13:00.000-07:00

i have this strange feeling of what my gift from God is...for years,i've gone through a lot of struggles and often it is the same with what my friends are now experiencing...is this what i should do?!..feel the pain of all my friends before they experience it,so that i may be able to help them and direct them to the right path?!..

up to now,the battle is far from my victory..i am still bound in the chains of pain..and untrue and deceiving love..i want to break free, but somehow i feel that the chains are made of silk and smooth to my wrist...i want to break free, but somehow, i long to feel the chains made of silk, for it is never tight..i want to break free, but somehow i cannot, for i am weak...i am weak and enslaved because it was through this enslavement that i felt loved...yet, it is untrue...it is not love...

may the God who created all of heaven and earth free me and take me as His servant, that i may be able to feel the real love and not want and long for the untrue love i used to believe to be real...so that i may help those who are also bound to the chains made of silk...and make them see where we can find the true meaning of love...

i've gone through terrible things that might have turned the usual people against God, but somehow i feel that He chose me to bear all of those pain because He knows i will not turn away from Him, and in fact, i would go to Him wanting nothing but the truth in this world which can be attained through the wisdom He alone can give...

i want to serve Him but i am still bound by the chains made of silk...may He at last free me...and make me His servant forever...Glory be to the LORD!!!!!=)

-deep thinker..

2008-10-16T00:33:00.000-07:00

i cant find the right start...but well,i guess i'll start this with the recognition of my friends,first of all.ANGELO,my co-blogger...angelo if u happen to be reading this,is sumthing wrong?!?!i have a feeling sumthing's not right with our friends...tell me,ok?!?!...helow also to adlene,maye,glendz,sherwin,rysan,francis,miya,dot,donya,danica,monette,gayfee....how r u guys?!?!...

hmm..we're actually watching our movie...and it's actually great!!!...ahihihi...i dedicated our work to God so it's for his glory.....=)

hmm...i dont know what to say...i cant think of anything to say...write i mean...better watch our movie!!!...see yah guys...=)

-deep thinker...

after sum days....

2008-09-15T23:18:00.000-07:00

2nd day of intrams...and so what?!... i actually enjoied d 1st half of diz day,coz im with ate joy..i met her through one of my classmates and friend, guwiya...as in,whole day kming ngttrip...ang saya...tas ngtaksyapo p kmi...ahahaha...kung anu2 pngga2wa nmin...wehehe...sayang,nd q nkita personal c yahkie...haaaii....peo me nxt tym p nmn...

wt else?!?!...hmmm...i felt so bad last sunday coz i wasnt able to attend church..i was invited by my friend and clzm8 leslie...but un42n8ly...d hndrances r 2 strong..peo,i know that there will b a way pra mfeel q ung gus2 ni zet n mfeel nmin s church nila...

i really dont like wats happening...i dunno wat the reason is,but im not feeling good about sumthing...i wish i could pinpoint,but i simply cannot...h8 that...hahaha...there r 2 many things that keeps on popping on my head..i cant understand why,but im not com4table with all of those thoughts...i wish i could just stop it,but i sumhow cannot...its pretty disturbing actually....and i h8 wer im writing...i juz h8 it...hihihihi...

there was a surprise that i really didnt expect in the least last sunday night...i joined my friend in giving sum invitations 4 her party,then went to their house to rest wen i saw sum books in her rum,then as though mesmerized by that moment,i kept on staring at the books wen i finally realized that i was staring at a potter book!!1...and not juz that,its the 7th installment!!!....ive been w8ing like 4ever to get hold of that book and i never expected that id b able to ryt now!!!..God really knows when to give surprises!!...my depression the day b4 made me believe in Him more and that belief really paid off!!...but i know there are more hindrances in my way towards Him...and i hope im ready....well,no need to be frightened coz He is with me all the time!!!...

hmm...what else can i say?!?!write/type,i mean...i h8 people who makes other's lives miserable and complicated...and izov really does!!!...he's way too above himself!!!...well,i juz dont wanna make things worse by confronting him and trying to change sumone who doesnt care...i juz hope the ryt person wud b able to make him realize all those things...

angel-o is ryt bsyd me...he's a spongebob addict...ahahaha....hmm...i dunno what else to say/write/type....ahihihi...haaaiii...til nxt time!!!...luvyah!!!...

an introduction..

2008-09-09T19:03:00.000-07:00

hmmm...first time..hahaha...juz made this blog 4 my friend...hahaha..

the day had juz started so i cant say much...nxt time n lng..hahaha...

-angelica